The Eyes Of An Only Child
Tuesday, June 24th, 2008
When I was younger I used to move around quite a bit. I left home for college when I was 16. Just before my 18th birthday I dropped out and took off for Europe. Between the time I left home and when I bought my first house in San Marcos, Texas about fifteen years later I lived in places like Los Angeles, CA, Key West, FL, Syracuse, NY, Austin, TX, Houston, TX, Lancaster, CA, Cupertino, CA, Eugene, OR and lots of places inbetween. Some for only a few weeks or months at a time. I hitchiked back and forth across the US at least five or six times during those years, usually from coast to coast. I once hitchhiked non-stop from New Haven, CT to Los Angeles in four and a half days with only $2.00 in my pocket (I still had 20¢ left when I got back home). I once figured out I had lived in over sixty different houses and/or apartments over a ten year period.
“Have you ever been lonely in the middle of the night
Even though the one you love got her arms around you so tight
And a far-off freight train makes a hollow sound
And the mockingbird singing a sweet sad song as your feet hit the ground
“I gotta move, that’s all I know
I gotta move, gotta hear the west wind blow
I gotta move, but I’m running out of somewhere to go
So I just move…”
When I heard those opening lines from “Gotta Move” on Tom Jans‘ The Eyes Of An Only Child album I was completely hooked. It’s still one of the saddest, sweetest songs I’ve ever heard. I’ve never come across a song that so eloquently captures the “sweet sorrow” contradiction of moving and traveling. I had heard Tom Jans before. I first became aware of him when I saw him open for Cat Stevens at the Greek Theatre (Los Angeles, CA) in November 1971 with his singing partner Mimi Farina (Joan Baez’s younger sister). Jans and Farina put out a wonderful album in 1971 titled Take Heart. Tom wrote the classic song “Loving Arms” that’s been covered by everyone from Elvis Presley to Kris Kristofferson and Rita Coolidge to Petula Clark to Dobie Gray to Olivia Newton-John to the Dixie Chicks. He released a stellar self-titled solo album on A&M in 1974. The Eyes Of An Only Child appeared a year later. This collection of ten songs was the high point of his career and it remains a real treasure in my LP collection. Every song is a gem, but the real standouts are “Gotta Move” (co-written with Lowell George), “Once Before I Die,” “The Lonesome Way Back When” and the title track. “Out Of Hand” was a smash country hit for Gary Stewart in 1975. Lowell George is listed as the “Executive Producer” and musicians include Bill Payne and Sam Clayton (also from Little Feat), Jesse Ed Davis, Fred Tackett, David Lindley, Jeff Porcaro, Jim Keltner and Mike Utley. They just don’t get any better than that and the playing throughout this album is just faultless. Valerie Carter and Herb Pedersen are along for background vocals.
Jans made one more album for Columbia, Dark Blonde (released in 1976). While it contained some terrific songs, it didn’t quite measure up to its predecessor, though it was certainly close. After that he dropped out of site. A new album, Champion, was released in a very limited edition on a Japanese label in 1982. I’ve never been able to find a copy (and believe me I’ve tried). He was in a very serious motorcycle accident in 1983 and then died in 1984, it’s said from a drug overdose (but don’t they always say that when they don’t know how a musician dies?). I was really saddened when I heard of his death. He was such a great, unique songwriter. He had the ability to write such personal, emotional, passionate songs without ever being sentimental or sappy. Not too many songwriters can do that. Joni Mitchell is another that comes to mind.
“Wondered in my heart of hearts if I’d been here before
Trembled when the winter wind would blow against my door
Been so far at sea I could not find the shore
Got down on my knees and prayed I would see more
With these eyes of an only child”
Tom Waits wrote a song, “Whistle Down The Wind,” for Tom Jans and it’s included on his 1992 album Bone Machine. Unfortunately, none of Tom’s albums have ever been released on CD in the US. I, of course, have ripped all four of them from vinyl to CDR, but it sure would be nice to get these on real CDs. The Eyes Of An Only Child and Dark Blonde were released in Japan in 2007, but I haven’t been able to bring myself to shell out the $35+ for each one. Take Heart and Tom Jans have never been released on CD anywhere in the world that I know of. It’s a crying shame. All of these albums are well worth searching out on vinyl if you can find them. Tom Jans remains one of the great “lost” songwriters of a generation. Today very few seem to know of him, but those that are familiar with his work hold his songs and music very dear.
Other Listens on June 24th:
Midnight On The Water by David Bromberg
New Skin For The Old Ceremony by Leonard Cohen
Book Of Dreams by The Steve Miller Band
Beautiful Loser by Bob Seger
Garcia by Jerry Garcia
Heart Food by Judee Sill
Matthew & Son by Cat Stevens
I try to go to France at least once a year. If there are such things as “past lives” I think I must have lived in France during one of them. I just can’t explain why I feel so at home there, so connected, but I do. It’s like being home. I first went to France when I was 18. I had dropped out of my second year of college, took what was left of my student load and bought a plane ticket to London. I think I had about $150 when I landed. I spent a couple of weeks hitchhiking around England and then headed over to the “continent.” Eventually I landed in Paris staying in a cheap youth hostel. I spent a few months there before coming back home. I used to dream all the time about being in Paris and France. It was actually 20 years before I made it back, on my way to a music convention in Berlin. Since then I’ve gone over almost every year. For awhile, when I worked for record labels, it was to attend the MIDEM convention ever year in Cannes. Then five years ago my friend Les and I went over for a two week cycling trip and we’ve since gone back three more times. I’d move to France in a second if only my wife would agree, but it seems I’ve married the only woman in America who isn’t interested in living in Paris.
In September 1976 I left Syracuse, New York with my girlfriend, Anne, headed for Boulder, Colorado. We never made it there. We hitchhiked down the East coast, all the way to Key West, Florida (where I’d lived for a short while in 1975). Anne had never travelled much so we decided to see the states on our way to Boulder. From Key West we hitchhiked up to Nashville. From there we headed to Austin, Texas. And that’s where we ended up. We loved Austin. We stayed for a few weeks and decided, hey this is great, let’s just stay here. And to be honest, at that point, we were getting a little tired of the road. Little did I know I’d be in the Austin area for the better part of the next 20 years. My only goal in life at that point was to get a job at a record store. Before too long I was working at Disc Records in Highland Mall. I was in heaven. Those were the days when every record was a potential friend. I’d pour over album covers reading liner notes, looking at musicians, producers, songwriters, trying to get as much information as I could about each record that caught my interest.
I have two close friends whose musical opinions and tastes I value very much, both of whom just can’t stand Leonard Cohen. He’s one of those artists that people seem to love or hate (no pun intended). There’s not a lot of middle ground when it comes to Leonard. Personally, I can’t get enough of the guy. He’s been one of my very, very favorite songwriters since I was in high school. You can’t compare Cohen to anyone. He’s one of a kind. A true poet. Some people have a problem with his voice and his singing, but not me. But then again, I tend to love singers that others don’t seem to appreciate: Bob Dylan and Neil Young come to mind. I discovered him via his second album, Songs From A Room (still one of my favorites). That album, along with his first (Songs Of Leonard Cohen) and third (Songs Of Love And Hate) have recently been reissued by Columbia in limited edition, deluxe, hard-cover digipacks with new liner notes, unreleased tracks and rare photos. I was looking through my Cohen CDs the other day searching for something to listen to. I’ve got all his albums (including a couple that have never been released in the US, only in Europe) and a dozen or so bootlegs. But the one I was looking for wasn’t there. New Skin For The Old Ceremony. Hmm. Maybe I never got that on CD for some reason. I’ve got two copies on vinyl. It was one of those albums that was released with one cover originally and then the cover was changed on subsequent pressings (Bob Dylan’s Blood On The Tracks is another great example of this). So, of course I had to have both pressings. So I checked on Amazon and found the CD for $5.97. Sign me up! Hell, I’ll buy almost anything for $5.97.
In the mid-90s Rocket/Island Records reissued the first twelve Elton John albums as “The Classic Years.” Each one was remastered, included the original album artwork, a nice essay and usually a few bonus tracks. These were perfect for me as this is my favorite Elton John period. I snapped them all up pretty quickly. Well, actually I got nine of them right away. I didn’t pick up Caribou, Captain Fantastic And The Brown Dirt Cowboy and Rock Of The Westies for several years. There’s not a single album after Hear And There that I ever listen to. I don’t think I even have any of them on CD. Oh, I did buy Songs From The West Coast when it was released in 2001, received great reviews and was hailed as his “return to form.” What a sucker I am. Like almost every other time I can think of when a similar situation has occurred with other artists I was mightily disappointed in the album. I think I listened to it a few times hoping against hope that the magic had indeed returned. Nope. I haven’t listened to it in years.
I missed the Rolling Thunder Review by one day. One day. It’s one of the great disappointments of my life. I was living in Syracuse, New York in the winter of 1975. This, of course, was WAY before the internet and email, so news and information didn’t travel the way it does now. I didn’t even have a phone. Dylan and company began their barnstorming tour in late October. They would announce shows just a few days in advance, mostly playing small theaters throughout the Northeast. I’d hear and read about the shows in the news. Were they going to come to Syracuse? No one knew. I asked around alot, people who I thought might know something the general public didn’t know, but there was no info. I didn’t have a car. I didn’t have much money. In November I was renting a room in a house from a crazy old man for $15 a week. I had a friend who was going to school in Oswego, New York which is just under an hour north of Syracuse, situated right on the shore of Lake Ontario. I would hitchhike up to visit her on weekends and days off from work. I hitched up on Tuesday, November 18th to visit see her. As soon as I walked in the door she blurted it out: “We went to see Dylan and the Rolling Thunder Review in Rochester last night!” “What!” I screamed. “Without me?” “We didn’t have any way to get in touch with you, it was a last minute thing, we just found out about it yesterday.” Boy, was I bummed. Still am.
I can’t explain what makes an album (or a song) “immediately accessible.” I don’t think anyone can. Some music is and some music isn’t. What I find “immediately accessible” may not be so to you and vice versa. Music is just too personal.
This is one of those albums which seems to be ingrained in my DNA. I’ve been listening to it since I was 15 years old. I know every word, every note by heart. I remember that is was one of the few albums that I had that my mom actually liked as well. It was one of her favorites. We used to listen to the 8-Track tape in the car all the time. I’m on a Carole King tear right now. To start with Epic/Legacy just released this new Legacy Edition version of Tapestry. Which would make it at least the 4th time I’ve bought this album. First on 8-Track tape, later on vinyl, then CD and now the Legacy Editon CD. The previous CD version was released in 1999, was remastered from the original ODE tapes and featured two bonus tracks, one of which, a studio outtake titled “Out In The Cold,” is not included on this new Legacy Edition, so I guess I’ll be hanging on to that version as well. Additionally, I started reading a book titled Girls Like Us by Sheila Weller which is a great biography of King, Carly Simon and Joni Mitchell. Of the three Joni is probably my favorite with Carole and Carly close behind. Right now I’m revisiting Carole but before long I’m sure I’ll be digging out all my Joni Mitchell and Carly Simon LPs and CDs.
Jackson Browne is one of the only artists to ever release a live album of completely “new” material, Running On Empty. The most famous other example is Neil Young’s Time Fades Away (still not available on CD!). Emmylou Harris did something almost the same with Last Date (the songs weren’t “new” though she had not recorded them before). Most artists take the opportunity to release live albums as a kind of “greatest hits” package. It takes a lot of courage to put out a live album with songs your audience has never heard previously. Yet for Jackson and Neil it paid off quite well. Running On Empty is one of Jackson’s best loved albums and Time Fades Away is a classic, though not as popular with Neil’s mainstream following as it is with the die hard fans. Jackson, either solo, with David Lindley as a duet, or with a full band, is a great performer. (I have an absolutely fantastic four disc bootleg of various live performances from 1973 to 1997 of just Jackson and David titled For Everyfan. Drop me an email if you’d like a copy, I’m always happy to share this kind of stuff.) I first saw him live with the Pretender band in 1977 in Austin, Texas at the old Palmer Auditorium (it’s gone now).
It took a long time for this album to reveal itself to me. More than 30 years. I’ve always been a very big CSNY fan. And a big fan of all the various incarnations and solo careers. The first concert I ever saw was Stephen Stills at the LA Forum. I think it was 1971. Neil Young is one of my all time favorite artists. In addition to Crosby, Stills & Nash, Deja Vu and 4 Way Street, Graham Nash’s first album, Songs For Beginners, had a huge impact on me. I love the first collaboration between Graham and David, Graham Nash & David Crosby (which for some unknown reason is still not available on CD in the US, though import copies are easy to find and reasonably priced). I bought If I Could Only Remember My Name…. when it was first released, but I never listened to it very much. It was a difficult album for me to find my way into. This is a different kind of music, especially for someone like me who is anchored in typical “pop” music and song structure. These are not typical pop songs. They’re not even typical “David Crosby” songs. Crosby has always had a very distinctive, unconventional songwriting style, even back in his days with the Byrds. The songs on If I Could Only Remember My Name… really took everything to a new dimension for him. “Laughing” was probably the only song I could really remember after I’d played the album. Everything else just kind of blended together into one long piece of music.
Cat Stevens was one of the first “singer-songwriters” I fell in love with. Tea For The Tillerman was an important album for me. I listened to it a lot when it was first released. I saw Stevens at the Greek Theatre in November 1971. I remember Tom Jans and Mimi Farina opened the show. (Tom Jans is one of the great unheard singer-songwriters of the 70s. I’ll blog one of these days about his Eyes Of An Only Child, one of my favorite albums.) Teaser And The Firecat followed, and while not quite as good as Tea For The Tillerman, it too was a great album. I saw the movie Harold And Maude around this time which featured a lot of music from Mona Bone Jakon and so went “backwards” and picked up that album which has some great songs on it. Just recently I finally picked up import copies of his first two albums on CD (expanded with lots of bonus tracks), Matthew & Son and New Masters. I decided to put together a comprehensive iTunes playlist of all his music. So I began listening to each album one after another. I had most of them, including the box set, on CD, but I was missing the last three CDs (from his “Cat Stevens” career), Numbers, Izitso and Back To Earth. I found them all at Amazon pretty cheap. For some reason Izitso must be out of print in the US now, as it took them a long time to ship me a copy and when it finally came it was a UK printing.